rant-ish post.

Okay, so its been a few days. On Friday I missed the support group meeting. My moms GPS died, and we totally got lossed. Everyone we called gave us wrong directions and we turned around eventually cause by the time we would find it it would already be completely over. Which sucks. I really wanted to meet some of the other kids.

Random thing I noticed today: For bigger girls, personally, for me anyway, I like to have other features to accentuate since im not very proud of my body. Ever since I was little, people ahve complimented me on my natural hair color. Its strawberry blonde-ish. mroe blonde than strawberry, lol. but it has like natural highlights from the sun and stuff. I always change up the cut and stuff too.. I have it kinda long right now.. heres a picture:

http://i54.tinypic.com/f5toy.jpg
Except, that was the day i got it cut and the stylist styled it for me.I can never get it as nice and straight as it is there, no matter what products i use or how much time i spend straightening it.

So i do best i can, its usually wavy-ish. and frizzy. very frizzy.

I used to have it cut shorter. last summer i had kinda a taylor momsen-esque cut. more volume on top thinner at the bottom, side bangs, etc..it looked really cool. and my hair didnt wave and frizz up as much then. So i'm thinking about chopping it all off.

^^wow that was random. anywho, yeah.  this is kidna just a random filler blog.. But some kids at school today were making stupid comments about fat people and saying we're all smelly and sweaty and eat twinkies and shit.. stereotypes suck. I hate them. But in reality, i wish people would realize, we're just like them. its not like we have some mental disability or are just flat out stupid or from another planet or somthing.

Personally (I've talked about this with one of my friends before too, shes plussized aswell.), Im obsessive with being clean.. like I have to wash my hair every day. brush my teeth obsessivley, redo my hair and makeup all the time, deoderant, perfume, hand sanitizer, etc... So is my friend. Its weird. Ive been around average sized people that smell TERRIBLE and just make me want to gag.

i hate when people dont realize that stereotypes are exactly what theyr'e called. stereotypes. People have come up to me and said to my face 'quit eating the stupid twinkies and maybe you'll lose some weight'. They dont realize ive dieted and exersized regularly pretty much my whole life.. I dont eat half as much as most people do. Its annoying. People really get on my nerves sometimes.

I dont know, this was just kinda a rant. i'll be back to regular posting tonight or tomorrow. (: