Approved! Got my surgery scheduled! :D:D:D

I'm extremely happy right now. I turn 16 on August 22nd. (2 days after my idols, birthday. :D random sidenote.. anyways..) And guess what? My surgery got approved today. literally 2 days after they recieved it. wooh! :D So yeah. My surgery is going to be on August 19th, 2011. :D:D<3333 Haha. I was asleep on the couch (i'm slightly nocturnal.. it was like noon.) and my mom shook me awake and was like crying and is like 'ashley they approved you! your surgery is in about two weeks!' i was like 'whaaa?' cause i was still half asleep.. she told me like 12 times before i finally understood what she was saying. i was speachless. like '... are you serious?' xD  SHE WAS! fjdkals;fjasd;l This is going to be amazing. <3 Is it bad i'm not nervous at all? I guess i'm so used to hospitals and stuff.. the fact that i'm going to have a major surgery.. doesnt really scare me. I'm too excited about it. I trust the doctors. I really do. I feel really great about all of this. i have to go in on the 17th, and 18th for pre-op stuff.. and some research stuff.. I forgot that i agreed to collect urine or whatever, to send in for research... its like a 48 hour urine collection. that i gotta mail in.. before then. So i gotta get that done sometime in the next week. to check for kindey stones before/after wls? i dont know, i didnt really understand it.. just agreed to it. it seemed simple enough. Haha.

However.. I'm kinda nervous at the moment. A family reuinion for my moms side of the family is tomorrow.. I start my liquid diet on sunday, so i dnot have to worry about that.. But.. My mom has a huge mouth. when she found out shes like 'GO POST IT ON FACEBOOK!' and im like, uhm... no. I'm excited.. but not that exited. I'm not ready to deal with peoples shit about it. But yaknow, she tells everyone she knows.. And it takes forever to explain. and people just dont understand. and its just stressfull. I havent met half of these family members before. and my moms gonna go 'OH YEAH SHES HAVING WEIGHT LOSS SURGYER IN 2 WEEKS!' and let alone its not lapband or rny.. god forbid it be somthing slightly less common. The sleeve. Bleh.

I'm happy i've come so far in this process and i'm about there, but its still hard... dealing with peoples crap. yaknow? But i gotta get over it.

I'm hesitant to tell this guy I kinda like.. we've been talking a lot lately and hes been really open with me about stuff.. I've told him im having surgery.. But i havent said what. he hasnt asked.. so... its not that big of a deal... right? no. i know its bad. i should tell him. buttttttt im scared. aha. let me be. i'll figure it out. i'll have to tell him eventually. 'oh. you've lost 30 pounds... in 2 months? how the hell...?' ... 'uhm.... yeah i forgot to tell you.. i had wls..?' '... oh. damn.' yeah... dreading that. but oh well. I'll figure it out.

I have an album on facebook entitled 'my journey' that has pictures ive taken all over the place, that i'll eventually post on here.. from doctors appointments and different testing ive had done and just really explaining what i'm going through.. a pictures worth a thousand words, right? -- so... anyone whos ees that album can kinda figure it out.. i never say im specificialy having weight loss surgery.. it says 'wls' though. anyone who cares can figure that out or ask me. lol.

So i need to go to the grocery soon and get protein shakes.. i dont have any at the moment. and some more lean cuisines to have. its a modified liquid diet. i'm allowed one meal under 400 calories every day, up until the day or two before surgery. then i believe its just clear liquids.. and nothing after midnight before surgery. I gotta be at the hospital at 5am... and its an hour away.. i wont be sleeping that night. haha.

so.. yeah. <3 Thats that for now. I'm really excited. :) I know i can do this. <3

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