Second thoughts..

I havent scheduled the surgery date yet.. I probably wont get it scheduled till mid/end of July. I'm glad I have a month or so to think things through before getting the date set..

I've been a research maniac the past few months.. and I'm just now finding out about some options I didn't know about.. The DuoDenal switch is really making me think here.. I want to have the VSG. My mom wants that for me too. But I'm realizing restriction alone probably won't help my metabolic issues, as much as a malabsorbtion procedure could.. but i'm not 100% sure. On obesity help ive gotten a lot of differnt peoples opinions on different procedues.. Most seem to reccomend RNY or DS, given the problems I have.. And the few that dont reccomend it, dont because mal absorbtion could be hard given my age... I realize I'm 15.. I don't want to be on a strict vitamin regimen my whole life. Who does? But i'd much rather deal with that, than with the issues my obesity causes.. I know i can stick to taking the pills.. Ive done it on and off since i was 8 or 9.. maybe even a bit younger. I'm already on some vitamins now, pre-op.

I hate that ive only met with my surgeon once, and i only have one appt. a month.. It's not enough for me to get the information i need.

I would take more time, but the thing is, the insurance that is covering my surgery i lose in october! I don't have enough time to look into other places.. Cincinnati Childrens was the first and only place I've gotten a refferal to, and I didn't think much of it.. Now I'm realizing how many other options there are and Im extremely frustrated I don't have the time to look into it all! I don't want to make a mistake.

If I have the VSG, what happens if i lose somew eight, but not all the weight that i need to, and then i dont qualify for a revision to DS?

I don't want the RNY... I really don't.. I'd do it if it was my only option. But from what ive seen, the weight comes off ridiculously fast.. With any surgery weight comes off farily fast.. But I dont want to lose a bunch of weight.. My goal right now is to lose 110 lbs.. I don't care if that takes 2 years.. I just desperatley need a jump start. i need help to lose it cause clearly I can't do it on my own.

I understand my conditions.. But most of it all is just done with my own research.. I see doctors once every couple months, i go to a few.. But they never explain things very well.. Its just frustrating.

I have two insurances.. United Health Care won't cover me for it.. I'm not sure if its because i'm under 18 or if its my dads policy.. But they just wont. Caresource/Medicaid however will! But we lose caresource in october! So i'm kind of in a rush because once i lose it i wont be able to have anything done till I'm 16.. I dont want to rush into things.. But i dont want to lose my chance either..

Ugh. This is overwhelming. I want to get a second opinion from another bariatric clinic but i dont know if i can without a refferal.. I dont know if insurance will cover it.. I was talking to a nurse and they said that caresource understands the cincinnati chidlrens bariatrics program well, they've ahd a lot of people go through it with caresource so they respond pretty quickly and are quick to agree to it all and such.. Thats why i was so happy. But now i dont know if it would be that simple with a different clinic.

Ugh!!!!!!! This is seriously frustrating. I don't want the weight to come off ridiculously fast.. I'm doing everything at all possible to avoid ridiculous amounts of loose skin after surgery... i'm currently even doing weights and resistance stuff along with some aerobics... (with no results, weight loss wise.. as usaul), and i'm looking into creams and compression garments and stuff for after surgery.. my skin has been stretched since i was little.. i'm really hoping it can go back to normal.. But i'm not gonna get my hopes TOO high..

Its just.. a lot to take in.. If all else fails, i'll just get the VSG because thats what everyone seems to want for me and go from there.. But i dont wan't to be disapointed if it doesnt treat my metabolic stuff, which is the whole reason i looked into surgery in the first place.. my health.


If anyone has any suggestions please please please message me on OH, Youtube, email, somthing.. I could really use some advice. Thanks. <3

-Ashley
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on a side note.. I miss this little kid. I have three little brothers.. This is the youngest, Nolan. He's 7. He'll be 8 in july. Definatley the one i'm closest to. Its weird. I see him and i'm not as stressed. Just cause he thinks about things so plain and simple... He gets stuff.. hes too smart for his age.. He'll randomly blurt out about how his friends parents are divorcing and they shoudl quit fighting cause its gonna be over soon anyway, and things like that. its insane. But yeah. He needs to come home. He spent the night at his grandparents last night. /: haha. I have so many pictures of him.. He loves my camera |: lol.